What to remember when you're afraid of tomorrow

     “Tomorrow” can be such a daunting word at times can’t it?  When I was little I was obsessed with the movie Annie.  I would sing “Tomorrow” at the top of my lungs at any time of day or night ad nauseum, just ask my parents.  

But I’m not singing “Tomorrow” today.  

The hills aren't alive with the sound of music in me today. 

It’s one of those days that you know is going to be a game changer.  

Ever have one of those?  One of those days that depending on the outcome, your life could change?  That’s tomorrow for me.  And I’m not exactly singing about it.  

Tomorrow I get to make the 2.5 hour drive to a world renowned hospital to have some testing done.  Don’t get a bee in your bonnet, it’s not life threatening.  But it sure scares me.  Tomorrow I get to sit on a white paper covered table in my hospital gown (Side note: Gown?  Really?  There is NOTHING gown like about those things and I’m certainly not feeling like Cinderella in one of them.  Throw me a tiara and then maybe we can talk.) and place my trust and future in the hands of a radiologist and some nurses I’ve never met.  But that’s not really true.  As I sit here with my fight or flight senses running rampant God gently reminds me of Psalm 121:

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—

    where does my help come from?

2 

My help comes from the Lord,

    the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 

He will not let your foot slip—

    he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 

indeed, he who watches over Israel

    will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 

The Lord watches over you—

    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;

6 

the sun will not harm you by day,

    nor the moon by night.

7 

The Lord will keep you from all harm—

    he will watch over your life;

8 

the Lord will watch over your coming and going

    both now and forevermore.

Oh how thankful I am for just the right word at just the right time.  Those nurses and doctors aren't the ones who hold my future.  God is.  And his plan for me is good.  And so I’m going to bravely go where no Salina has ever gone before knowing that He is right there with me.  And I’ll probably still need the anti anxiety med they offer for a procedure like this but that’s besides the point.  The point is, God’s not asleep on the job.  He’s not asleep on your job.  Call to him and he’s right there.  Pretty amazing.  How do you need to trust God today?  What do you need to place in his hands?  

Here goes nothing…see ya tomorrow.